Poet Lukcia Patricia Sullivan Reflects on Transition in New Work

Lukcia Patricia Sullivan, a retired military officer and veterinarian, shares her personal journey through transition in her latest poem, “Flow into Girl.” This piece, published in the **2024** anthology *Monster Beauties: A Trans Poetics Archive*, offers an intimate glimpse into the challenges and triumphs of embracing one’s true identity. Sullivan, who transitioned at the age of **67**, reflects on her life in Hampden, where she now lives authentically as her true self.

The poem begins with vivid imagery and a sense of awakening, as the speaker declares, “I wake up from vivid dreams.” This line sets the tone for a narrative that explores the fluidity of identity and the process of self-acceptance. Through the repeated phrase “I flow into girl,” Sullivan conveys a transformative journey that resonates deeply with her experiences of gender dysphoria over the decades.

Sullivan describes her past struggles with identity, stating, “In the beginning I was repulsed by acts that were his.” This candid admission highlights the internal conflict faced during her transition. Over the course of four years, she emphasizes the hard work necessary to embrace her identity fully. “I am doing the work, that now is the girl’s to do,” she writes, signifying a shift from avoidance to acceptance.

Embracing Authenticity and Community

Sullivan’s poem also touches on the importance of community and support in the transition process. She expresses a wish for other individuals facing similar challenges, stating, “I wish this for all the girls like me.” This sentiment underscores the collective experience of the transgender community, where sharing stories can foster understanding and empowerment.

The publication of “Flow into Girl” coincides with the opening of submissions for the **Deep Water** poetry series, which is particularly eager to amplify the voices of underrepresented writers, including Black writers, writers of color, indigenous writers, and LGBTQ+ writers. The Maine Writers & Publishers Alliance oversees this initiative, inviting poets to share their work through the end of the year. More details on submissions can be found at mainewriters.org/deep-water.

Sullivan’s journey serves as a powerful reminder of the resilience and courage required to live authentically. Her work not only provides solace to those navigating similar paths but also contributes to a broader conversation about identity and acceptance in society. As she reflects on her past, Sullivan notes, “I barely remember who my ‘he’ was anymore,” a testament to the profound impact of her transition on her sense of self.

Through her poetry, Sullivan continues to inspire others, demonstrating that it is never too late to embrace one’s true identity and live life fully.